Continuing in our series of author exclusives, this week we have an interview with Gillian Cummings, author of Somewhere in Blue. Somewhere in Blue is an acclaimed new YA novel about a teenage girl who tries to cope with grief after her father’s death.
Somewhere in Blue is your first novel – how did it come about?
I wrote the beginnings of the book years ago as an assignment for a writing class I was taking with Peter Carver at Toronto’s Mabel’s Fables bookshop. I eventually spun it into about four chapters, and had begun to develop the basic characters of Sandy, Lennie, Teresa, Vivian and Dan in the setting of Toronto’s Beaches, but just didn’t have the time to push it further. My daughters were young then, and I was doing a fair amount of freelance magazine writing and TV work. I always meant to come back to it, though, and I always knew how it was going to end. I just had to find the time to get the words down. Once my daughters were older and I had larger chunks of time for writing, I finished a first draft, and spent another few years rewriting, reworking and polishing. Talk about a long-term goal!
Why did you decide to write a novel for young adult readers?
The original assignment in my writing class was to write the beginning of a young adult story that would hook a reader. I still have that first single-spaced page I handed in, and the note my teacher attached to it praising the writing, encouraging me. Of all the projects I was working on back then, I had a comfort level with this one – it was a groove that seemed to work for me. I liked the Sandy character and was interested in how her literate being was being silenced by this death. I also appreciated that with this age range I could explore a real intensity of feeling, which is so central to a young adult’s life.
You have been praised for the strong character development in this novel. Were any of the characters based on specific people?
No, all of these characters are fictional. I don’t know anyone who resembles any of them, though I think it would be fun to know Teresa. She was a just a joy to write, and though I don’t personally know any cougar moms, she was really a vivid person in my head, with a trashy look that she thinks most becoming, glaring weaknesses and hidden strength. Sandy has that churning intensity and depth under the surface that I like in a person. She’s a thinker, an analyst, and she’s comfortable alone, but with the death of her father she’s been cut adrift and knows it. Lennie is one of those sincere, well-meaning friends that everyone needs. But she’s changing from merely being embarrassed about her mother to being supremely frustrated and actually appalled – this is what spurs her own growth. There’s not a lot to like about Vivian, I’ll admit. Her brittleness does eventually shatter, and that’s satisfying, but her self-absorption is so deep seated that there’s little room for Sandy.
I think as an author I do tend to mine various characteristics that I notice around me: For example, Dan’s listening ear is very like the one I experienced in my husband back when he was 16 (yes, I married my high school sweetheart), but the resemblance stops there. It’s much more appealing to create new people you think could exist than mirror ones you know.
Why were you inspired to write about the themes of loss and grieving?
Loss and grief affect all of us, and they put us through such terrible tests: Can we absorb a loss or do we falter? Do we manage the practical details but tumble into the hole that remains? Does the permanency of loss finally make us buckle? How long does grief last? There’s inherent drama here, in how characters cope pushed to their limits, and I think I wanted to confront a teen girl with what I would consider to be one of the saddest things she could ever experience. Sounds cruel, doesn’t it? But Sandy’s struggle with the loss, her fight to not let it overwhelm her, lets me explore these very human challenges. Teresa’s loss is more complex but more distant, since she has already come through it. She has endured the abuse and loss of family trust, the abandonment of a man she loved, and the alienation of her siblings. She has moved on and created a life for herself and Lennie, but all it takes is one phone call for the old grief to come rolling back. Is it that we never truly lose grief, only secrete it?
Whether a loss is our own or a friend’s, it’s one of the most painful and difficult realities for us all, yet it can bring out our humanity in the midst of our strengths and our weaknesses. This is what I explored in Somewhere in Blue.
Many teens have an incredibly difficult time coping with a death in the family. Was your hope that Sandy’s story could help readers who have had similar experiences?
Writing Somewhere in Blue has allowed me to explore some of the emotions involved when a teen loses a parent, but this is just one girl’s story. So many other teens’ circumstances would be different: they may still have one supportive, loving parent; they may not have been as close to the parent they lost; they might have siblings who share their perspective; or they may absorb the death and not sink beneath it. I didn’t write the book presuming I could help teens in any of these positions, but if the book does shed light on loss and grief, and if the way Sandy falters and copes does resonate with a reader who has lost a parent, a family member or a friend, then I’m very glad.
Helping a friend who has experienced a loss is its own learning experience, as Lennie finds out. It’s hard to know what to say, how far to dig, when to simply listen and when to take charge. Perhaps in the actions of Lennie, Dan, Teresa, Harold Dipton and even Vivian, there is some glimmer of insight for a reader who wants to support a friend in their sadness.
What is the ‘message’ you are imparting to readers through the struggles of these characters?
I didn’t set out with messages in mind. I was simply exploring characters dealing with challenges. Watching them cope, it’s clear that they don’t always have the tools to communicate well, or enough understanding to choose the right way to handle a situation. They’re human. They react badly sometimes. They’re not always up to the task. But they persevere, and that is what most of us do, day in, day out.
My characters keep looking for that perfect man. They keep trying to engage their lost friend. They move through a bad situation, eager to come out the other end happier. They eventually settle with a devastating loss. It’s more than Harold Dipton’s seeking out the blue sky. It’s learning who we are, what we value, how we handle things, how to reach out to others. My female characters each learn more about themselves, and that’s what life asks of all of us. If there’s any message here, it’s one of learning, growing and changing in response to life’s trials.
What were some books that inspired or affected you as a teen?
I was a huge fan of Trixie Belden and Nancy Drew. Not the greatest writing, but I loved the series aspect, the comfort of the same old characters, even the covers. They were favourite birthday presents of mine. I read Judy Blume’s Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret many times. Margaret seemed to voice all my inner thoughts and insecurities. I remember picking up the The Diary of Anne Frank from one of those rotating wire shelves in my elementary school library. We did not study it in school, but what a powerful punch it packed for me. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith and The Stone Angel by Margaret Laurence also held special status. They were both so powerful in place and character, and I still gravitate today to books with those strengths.
Can I bend the rule and mention a young adult book I read about 12 years ago? I marveled at it, and have held it in my mind as a kind of way-out-there inspiration. Out of the Dust, by Karen Hesse, is a moving tale of a farm girl in the dustbowl of the dirty ‘30s, but it is written in beautifully spare free verse. It was a revelation to me how intense economy of words created such a dense portrait – the beauty of poetry really, but more so. Whether I will ever be capable of writing something in this form, I don’t know, but one day I may try anyway, just on the strength of that one book.
What are you working on now?
I have had a set of characters in my mind for a few years now that I am slowing fleshing out. I still have to sharpen up the setting, but I know how these two characters look and talk and what they do, and I’m working out their challenges. The first scene where they meet has been alive in my mind for a long while.
I’ve been doing some magazine writing recently, and I also have ideas on what might happen next in the lives of Somewhere in Blue’s Sandy, Lennie, Teresa and Vivian. Stay tuned!
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You can find Somewhere in Blue at your local bookstore, Amazon.com, Amazon.ca, BarnesandNoble.com, and Chapters.Indigo.ca.